by
Billie Sue
My name is Billie Sue.
I am a Christian, a born again child of God. That is the most important thing in anybody's life.
Also, I am a transsexual woman. That means I have the soul, spirit and mind of a woman, but born with the body of a male. The commonly accepted medical reason for this condition is that a female brain developed in my little body before birth. Therefore, it is appropriate to accept myself as female.
I struggled with the transsexual question all my life. I found some Christian friends who shared this same problem and through them, I found a closeness with God--closer than I had ever been. I had been living a lie trying to live as a male and God doesn't approve of liars.
You see, I was confused and often depressed. I needed help! I asked some sisters on-line to pray for me, and I also prayed. Suddenly, one night as I was lying in bed talking to God, my mind became completely female. God revealed to me that I was born female this way for a purpose. The purpose was to minister to hurting people, not just the transgendered, but to all people. By being transsexual, I experienced the hurt, shame and feeling of unworthiness that many disabled brothers and sisters feel. That night, God took away the shame. There is no reason anymore to deny being female.
This is not the path that I would have chosen. But, I began to understand some of the hurt and shame that Jesus faced. We cannot know the full impact of the suffering of Jesus, but I got a little glimpse. I suffered enough to be loving and compassionate toward God's children who have been rejected by modern society.
Oh yes, I know that I have been rejected by the church. Years ago that would have bothered me. But, God gave me greater love than most church members. I love all of God's creation! This is the religious atmosphere that used to be part of my life and I can understand why they are so hostile toward the transgendered. However, they are my brothers and sisters. I love them and I am not going to judge them. Many are walking in the only light they have. Someday we will be in heaven together, and God will open their understanding.
We are living under grace -- under New Testament guidelines, which requires us to be led by the Holy Ghost, not some written law. There is no New Testament teaching against the transgendered. I know some will point toward the effeminate males in the scriptures, but that has no connection with the transgendered.
I cannot be considered a cross dresser. No matter what clothes I wear, whether it be a dress or men's shirt and pants, I am still a woman. The only place the Lord has required wearing a dress is in the house of the Lord. I am to recognize that I am a woman and take the place of one in the church.
I have no guilt. How about you? How is your standing with God? Today is the day of salvation, tomorrow may be too late. It does not matter what handle society has placed on you, GOD DOES LOVE YOU! He wants you to come to him and let him take your burdens. He can handle it. They are too heavy for you.
If you need help, e-mail me at:
hillbillie5441@yahoo.com
God loves you and so do I.
Billie Sue
